How I Feel Most The Time

Today I had a counseling appointment for the first time is 8 months. I was so scared I have had a lot go done in the last 8 months and a lot of it wasn’t good. I did a bunch of thing I regret. You know when you do something stupid and you know it was stupid. Well sometimes I do things out of impulse and then 10 minutes later go why did I do that. Well that apart of being bipolar. I know i said a few sentences earlier in another blog but I want to expand a little on that. Bipolar or manic depressive has a few sides to it. One you can either have mostly low or two you can have mostly highs. Well being super depressed is not fun you think bad think you don’t want to get out of bed, you get snappy and overall you just don’t feel like living. I feel like this sometimes. Most other times I feel on top of the world. Sounds fun right. WRONG! It’s bad. When someone get manic (more often then depressed) you kind of think your a cat with nione lives. It's bad. I think of all the things that are bad for me and am like ‘hey I can do this because it won’t hurt me’.  It’s like having ADHD x 5 while being depressed.